why not

lalalalalalala

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 06:07:53 GMT

I was at school for 14 hours today. jazz band. school. english project. voice lesson (quick run to the store to get some sort of crappy food- aka chicken strips). drum line. mert. i think school needs to be over forever. i dont even want to go to college anymore. and my grades suck... whatever. now i will do a mind numbing survey to fill all the extra time i have. enjoy.

(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) taken a shower with a member of the opposite sex
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) ran over an animal and killed it.... "OH, NO!"
( ) broken a bone
( ) had sex
(x) given someone a bruise
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x) had oral surgery
( ) seen a therapist
( ) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a concert
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
(x) had oral sex
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now

hehe, that was lame, but im putting off my homework as well as not wanting to go to bed, so this seemed fitting. now i will go play tetris

Someone else has a house as small as mine!

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 00:35:56 GMT

Today is a weird day, and last night was a weird night. Went to a party at aumlett's house and ended up falling asleep on her couch and using matt as a pillow. i couldn't even move. i woke up at like 2:30, and walked into the main room to a bunch of naked people. Then naked charlie attacked me and i didn't even like it. i guess these naked people had played strip drinking games, and then they were playing spin the bottle when i got in there. so that was funny. Then a few people fell asleep and kris, aum, kyle, michael and i were just talking for about two hours. at 5:30 i decided i didnt want to sleep there, so kyle, good old dd, drove me home and we both just stayed at my house. now ive been out of it all day and i have to go work on a frickin english project. gotta go get dressed. meh.

eMo

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 10:17:50 GMT

do you ever have those nights when you want to sleep, your eyes are watering and they sting to be closed, but your mind just wont stop spinning. you guessed it, its one of those. its not like i have anything pressing to think about. break has been ok, but i can't help reminding myself that i have a whole check-list of things to do and no checks. i just feel antsy, like i shouldn't be sitting still, but i just have nothing better to do. i jsut watched saved and decided i love it, but then it was over and now i am here. ive been writing again lately, nothing very intersting, or good, but something none the less. my muse is emo damnit. its really fucking cold in my house but i am burning up and i dont get it. i dont think i am sick. this all ended up making no sense, so i guess i will go try and sleep. ill probably lay in bed for an hour before i decide that more "poetry..." needs to be made. meh. i guess sleep is worth a try, and there is no better time than the present.

je les deteste

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 01:30:22 GMT

yeah, well i havent updated in a long long time. yesterday was officially the worst day ever. although i guess when i say yesterday i also mean the day before. on wednesday night i only slept for three hours because i was writing my stupid fucking world lit for english. 1200 words exactly. bare minimum for me it seems again. oh yeah, did i mention that it was already a day late? so i was barely functioning and then i started to feel sick. lovely. i hate school so much. then yesterday i got home and got in my pajamas. at about 5 morgan calls and asked if i could pick her up from the school cause her mom was stuck in trafic. so i get in the car pjs and all without my cell phone and pick morgan up. with morgan comes adrian and mara. so i drop mara off at twality and go up the street. its raining and i have to make the shitty turn off 97th onto mcdonald, so i turn and i look to my right and see a big white truck. hes speeding and ends up hitting me on the left back quarter-pannel. scared the shit out of me. i almost fucking killed adrian. luckily everyone is ok, if a little tweaked, and my car is fixable. it will look like crap, but it will be drivable, which is all that matters to me. oh yeah, and by getting in that wreck i missed my fucking choir performance which i now have to make up. mehmehmehmeh. i hate it so much. and now im glad to know its the weekend, but that sucks to cause i have to work. BLEH!

merg-a-troid

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 05:50:52 GMT

i am hungry and tired and i want to go to bed. but for some reason i am sitting here... i went to a frre movie at psu tonight with my dad. it was about male gender roles, and while being very interesting and informative, it just reinforced how stupid and fucked up our society is. right now i am eating cold green beans from a can, can you tell that my mom is not home?... that is my dinner, and while i am still hungry, i have just opted to go to bed instead of taking the time to find/make food. oh yeah, and i have lost all motivation for everything. i just dont care. i think i am going to do really badly on my grades this term. the thought of a C would have made me freak out a couple years ago, and now i just think, well i should do something about that... but i dont want to right now. school... my joy of joys... oh yeah, and cake is coming, but it is only for 94.7 members and that makes me want to cry.

lameness.hehe.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 23:39:09 GMT

i know these things are kind of lame, but i am curious and a glutten for punishment. hehe. so if you get the time, fill it out. oh yeah, and dante is the cutest thing ever.

1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
4. Do you (or did you ever) have a crush on me?:
5. Would you kiss me?:
6. Describe me in one word:
7. What was your first impression?:
8. Do you still think that way about me now?:
9. What reminds you of me?:
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
11. How well do you know me?:
12. When's the last time you saw me?:
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
14. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:

DANTE!!!

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 04:43:46 GMT

i am getting a kittin!!! im so excited, but then it makes me worried that he will get sick and die and i will never recover. i think i am a freak. my mom thinks i am a horrible daughter and wishes i would get my lisence so she would quit having to hang out with me and drive me around so she could just hang out with her friends. it is really frustrating that i keep getting pay checks, which i immediately put in the bank, so i know i have money, but i don't have cash and i don't feel like i should spend my saved money so it pretty much seems like i am working for nothing. im sure it will be good in the long run, when i have to buy christmas presents and shit, but right now it makes me sad. i am really good at writing run-on-sentences and entries that make no sense to anyone. oh yeah, and i hate school. a lot.

i am a bum

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 22:00:12 GMT

i haven't updated in forever... and why is that you ask? because i am a bum. right now i am sitting at home watching animal planet (oh the joy of newly aquired cable). Anna came home last night! yay! we missed her ever so much. i am supposed to be cleaning my room at this very moment. the room that my mom refers to as "an abomination against god". though i know i will be happy when my room is clean i have no motivation, sounds king of like school work. i am very excited because right now my mom is driving home from taco del mar with a wonderful burrito just for me. yay. i guess i will quit my strange ramblings now. hehe. meh.

could be worse

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 00:37:45 GMT

today started off on the wrong foot, but got much better. for those of you who don't know, i failed my driving test this morning. meh. it was my fault and a stupid infraction, but i will live. ill just drive a bunch more, and then take it again in a month. pretty much my day started off like crap. i got to school about 20 minutes before the end of first period, so i of course went to visit my long lost french buddies. that was cool. choir went pretty well cause we only sang for 15 minutes. i had fun in POA cause you can't really be in a bad mood when rutch is your teacher and your assignment is to comliment everyone in your group. hehe. Even biology wasnt that bad (cause i didnt do anything) but i am going to fail my test on thursday. I found out Nate Egbert is coming to homecoming so i volunteered to work so i could see him and everybody else look at pretty. i have to go get ready for work, even though i hate it and you shouldnt work in a restraunt when you are sick.

i should be working...

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 20:06:30 GMT

I have a ton of work to do this weekend. Lots of homework as well as the house being an abomination. i should be cleaning right now, or at least drawing stupid sketches for the art class i skipped, but no. i am watching the tv with the newly aquired cable that sits in my living room. i just dont want to do anything except sleep, eat, and watch tv. hehe. lazy lazy mo. well, tonight i have to work and then i am going over to jeffs and it should be interesting if nothing else.

wow... its been a while

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 02:26:54 GMT

i guess i haven't updated in a week. wow. ok, so school still sucks. i miss coley (she left for stanford today...). i fucked up bad in jazz band today amd couldnt seem to play anything right. i think the yell count was at about 4 or 5. oh yeah. i havent done the english dialect thing yet, so i should probably do that since its late. I got back from camping yesterday. it poured all weekend, but i had fun nonetheless. ben wasnt really akward, just a little. i didnt hang out with him much, and i realized he really isnt anything special. doesnt make me any less desperate, but it at least makes me not feel so bad about rejection. or maybe it should make me feel worse cause i got rejected my a loser... hmmm. i did get to hang out with my buddies and have some good HOME GROWN fun with my second family. none of my real family was there. damn... hehehe. wow i think that was the most emo thing i have written in a long time. hehe. i guess that is how it goes when you have angst. hehe.

i hate zero period

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 05:17:33 GMT

right now i am supposed to be finishing my english assignment that was due for my non-existant english class on thursday. i am feeling really hyper and manic, but not in a good productive way, just in a twitchy tired way. tomorrow is my first day of jazz band, which begins at 6:30 am. i have to get up even earlier than i usually would because i have to pick up fred (our newe drummer) and take him to. in addition to having to get up so fricking early tomorrow is picture day!!!! yay. dark circles are tres chic. i have to get up at 5:15. meh..... i guess i will try and resume my report now. goodnight.

LAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 22:54:37 GMT

i slept for 10 hours last night and that makes me happy. i went out to lunch with my mom and grandma today at manazana in LO. it was tasteh. then we cruised some yuppy shopes and i found the softest scarf ever and i had to buy it. i am currently working to wear my mom down on the issue of getting a kitten from kelsey. she has one that she says is calm and stoner-kittyish which i think would be perfect for me. it also happens to be orange and named dante.i have to go to work in 2 hours and i hope we are as busy as we were yesterday, cause i made $17 in tips working 3 hours. zach said he and the boys might come in which would be so festive... yaya. in case anyone can't tell, i am slightly hyper.

i hate school

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 00:44:32 GMT

this morning was like something out of a bad teen movie. At 4:30 am i decided i should get a little bit of sleep, so i left kyle a note to wake me up when her alarm went off at 5:45. morgan comes in and wakes me up to inform me that it is 6:50. SHIT! we had planned to leave the house at 6:50. what a coinsidence! so i get up, can't shower, don't have time to eat, and first and foremost didn't have time to finish my project. i am a procrastinator, but i always get things done. this was the first time i haven't. So i get to school, looking and feeling like crap, and head straight to the counciling office without passing go or collecting $200. i signed my name on the stupid little sheet and found an empty seat, feeling self concious and alone. sit there for an HOUR and finally decide to go to french. it was fine, and choir was fine (though i have to go around the entire fucking school to get between the two). have lunch then go to PE, tell alderman im dropping and go back to counciling. this time i wait and hour and fifteen minutes just to be told that 4th period now took priority, even though i had been sitting there for fucking ever! so i go to bio and that is fine except that i have to memorize things... well. that is the basic gist of my day. i hope you enjoyed my rant as much as me.

soooo swweeeeppppppyyy

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 11:03:59 GMT

for some reason it seems like it would have been a good idea to do my summer reading ahead of time. i have to get up in 2 hours. yay.

i will not

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 18:18:04 GMT

i am in denial about this so called starting of school. i have read 5 chapters of my summer reading book on which i have to turn in 5 journal entries tomorrow. i have also decided that i will not be sacrificing my last night to sleep. i only need a couple hours, and why waste your last taste of freedom. answer me that! i wish there was something fun and memorable to do today, but there is nothing at all... tear.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 20:47:49 GMT

last night might have been a little bit festive.... but only a little. the boys (aka zach, geoff, and tyler) came over at 10 and left at 12, but since they couldn't resist morgan's hot body they came back at 1. morgan enjoyed the evening because she was the center of attention, and zach was sullen for exactly the same reason (that morgan was the center of attention.) we went on the swings and hung out in the music room listening to nerfherder and sublime. a few rounds of truth or dare and 3/4 of a bottle later we were all happy though slightly less dressed (except for me and zach cause we are good children *tear*). sneak attack bra unsnapping and experimental belt removal ensued and fun was had by all.

i should be sleeping

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 11:35:50 GMT

kyle, morgan, jeni and i went to the 24 hour starbucks where we stayed for almost 2 hours... hehe. then we went through the burger king drive though, as well as paying a quick visit to 7-11 (because bk doesn't have frozen coke between midnight and 6 am *bastards*). then we came back to my humble abode and played cranium for like 2 hours. jeni and i rocked it by missing almost every question imaginable. oh yeah, and we really like the color red. at around 4 we stood by as morgan and jeni snuck back into morgans house. that brings me to now. i am getting up to go to the fair (yes. again.) in 5 1/2 hours. yay. i really wish i was tired.

just and ordinary joe kind of a day

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 05:45:51 GMT

today wasn't too interesting. went to the mall/dinner with my fam and kyle this afternoon. i aquired a new boys wallet and i finally found a black cardigan!!! after searching for a year. YAY. after that i came home and took a nap. didn't do anything else until i went to work at 6. it was fine. busy enough to not be bored. nothing else going on. watching tv. wow, that was boring.

lalalalalalalalala

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 05:12:33 GMT

went to the mall today with morgan, mandy, and kyle. nothing too exciting. morgan got some cute new clothes and i ate. like usual. after i got home my dad came over and took morgan and i driving. i got to witness the first time of morgan behind the wheel and i wasn't scared once! i practiced parking and backing up. and i drove around tigard. i want my lisence right now, even though i am still scared of driving.... i just want to be able to get places whenever i want without having to bother anyone else. now i am watching The Shining. i am in love with this movie. it is the newer version which sacrifices good acting for better special effects. there is no jack nicholson though... *tear*
HEEEEERE'S JOHNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is the life

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 18:21:56 GMT

i love it when you wake up in the morning and realize you don't have to get up. the only thing you have to do is re-rap yourself in your blanket and re-settle your head on your pillow. there is nothing pressing except comfort. that was what i woke up to this morning. and when i finally got out of bed i dragged my blanket with me through the kitchen, stopped at the fridge to get a cup of chocolate pudding and plopped down in my favorite chair to watch decorating shows and enjoy my pudding. mmmmmmm.

home again, home again, jiggity jig

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 07:56:27 GMT

had a busy day today. just did a lot of running around. got a new earing and finally bought some groceries. yay for real food! then we went to the airport and picked up my sister who came home from NY care of minnesota. she is definately home. that is all.

hello all

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 17:50:14 GMT

yesterday i went to my dad's and we squeezed 6 people (including drue in a carseat) into my little taurus! hehe, we drove from vancouver to the kennedy school to see harry potter 3 (for my 3rd time) it was festive even though my little ADD nephew couldn't stay still or quiet for more than 5 minutes at a time. sandy (my step sister) is home from Eugene for the week so i stayed up way to late while her and her boyfriend kasey smoked pot and she talked and talked and talked. it was pretty good times. this morning my dad woke me up at 5:20 am so he could drop me off at home on his way to work. i drove to the freeway, and from the freeway with him driveing in between. now i am home and very awake (cause i went back to sleep from 7-10)

today

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 06:18:07 GMT

went to the state fair today and squished kyle on a couple of rides, (she wanted to be on the outside, its her fault she forgot about centrifical force). i also had a cherry/lime snow cone thing that made my day. i found this squishy bouncy thing that is the best stoner toy ever, and its name is shrimpysquishy (for those of you who know, it is a mini squishy). i also went to work and then hung out with kyle, morgan and felicia for a while. good times. even though we all miss anna.

BETTY!!!

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 17:26:21 GMT

i just got the best delivery ever! it is a huge, white, fluffy cat named betty. i will be cat sitting betty for the next two weeks. while i will probably suffer from horrible allergies for the next two weeks, and probably a week after, i think that betty and i will bond. i think i will call her fat-head squared. we also decided that betseh's cat russell and betty should have kittens and then they would be the hugest kittens EVER! yay for kittehs.